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Hi Darling, I tend to think about the day I die a lot. WAIT! Before you think I’m crazy or Looney. Just Listen… 👂 In Matthew 7:23 it says; “And then will I declare to them I never knew you depart from me you workers of lawlessness.” Lawlessness- anomia: • a- = without • nomos = law So literally: “without law.” But in Scripture, it means living as if God’s will, authority, and character don’t matter, even if someone appears religious on the outside. To think we could spend our entire life here on earth thinking we know God, but we didn’t even try to have a relationship with him that terrifies me. I once had a dream it was last year around October, and I felt this dream so much. I still remember every detail it was dark outside, and there were small babies on the ground, calling out for their moms while men on horses drug their moms down the road. There were so much darkness in chaos. Honestly, I woke up crying that day thinking about those poor babies, but as I think about it, those babies were crying out in that moment for their moms KNOWING that, that was their mom but when they get older, they won’t even remember their mom getting drugged away like that unless someone were to remind them. No one actually remembers what happened as a baby unless there are pictures, or someone reminding them of a memory. Do you understand? As we grow, we have the opportunity to know God, but if no one tells us about him or if we don’t even try to seek him, we won’t ever have a relationship with him living for/and the world won’t do anything but get us a first class ticket to hell I don’t know about you, but how doesn’t really sound like somewhere I want to be. No beach? No thank you! Fire and destruction? Ewww So I beg you, please start a relationship with God. He has been crying out to you. He has been calling your name. Will you just come home and allow him to embrace you? I don’t wanna win this race alone. We can all cross the finish line. let’s stop playing around and win the race to Jesus.     With Love,                       Neci 🤍

Hi Darling, Life tends to ruin a few things. Innocence Trust Our idea of lov— and being loved I used to think redemption would be a Prince Charming coming and saving me. Waiting seemed like the longest thing ever, but what I didn’t know was, the Prince Charming I was waiting for wasn’t coming. But He had already come, but He wasn’t a Prince but a King. And He wasn’t yelling at me to let down my hair or to put on a shoe. No this isn’t Disney and life isn’t a fairytale. The King that redeemed me called me to stand up and get out of that endless pit. He didn’t tell me everything would be okay but instead He showed me things will get messy but I wouldn’t have to worry. He showed me true trust and through that I regained the innocence I once had. He showed me it's okay to truly love. Love doesn't save you from the fire but helps you walk through it. I remember when I was waiting on “Prince Charming”with my Bible opened to a random page. “But now, thus says the Lord, who created you, O Jacob, And He who formed you, O Israel: “Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by your name; You are Mine. When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; And through the rivers, they shall not overflow you. When you walk through the fire, you shall not be burned, Nor shall the flame scorch you. For I am the Lord your God, The Holy One of Israel, your Savior; I gave Egypt for your ransom, Ethiopia and Seba in your place. Since you were precious in My sight, You have been honored, And I have loved you; Therefore I will give men for you, And people for your life.” ‭‭Isaiah‬ ‭43‬:‭1‬-‭4‬ ‭NKJV‬‬ This is the story of redemption. For so long I had wondered why I enjoyed reading the book of Isaiah. But also for so long as the people in that book I too felt weary, exiled and as if redemption was impossible. Searching for redemption in the wrong book. The answer was right there yet I closed it, and I went back to my fairytale dreams. Redemption is not found in fairytale books, no because those books promise escape. Which is why the world loves the word Escapism. You escape whatever it is for a little while but you still have to go back to that thing. But with Redemption, you don't have to go back. Because you will truly be saved and turned around. If this is you or was you at some point let me leave you with this piece of love. Being saved by the King means you are already redeemed and you don't have to wait anymore. He's already said you are His! How amazing is that? He loves you more than the stars in the sky! There will truly be no one else that loves you like this. So hold onto these precious truths! With Love,                     Neci 🤍

My church is fasting in this season and they have provided us with scriptures to read everyday. Today it was Ecclesiastes 4:12 which says; “And if one prevail against him, two shall withstand him; and a threefold cord is not quickly broken.”     https://bible.com/bible/1/ecc.4.12.KJV But I kept hearing to read Joshua so a little later, I’m watching YouTube and I’m like eh, this is boring so I get up and go grab my Bible and I’m like Okay, Holy Spirit what is in Joshua that you want me to read. I read up until Joshua 2 where Rahab hid spies in her house.     “And she said, “According to your words, so be it.”     Then she sent them away, and they departed.           And she tied the scarlet cord in the window.”                             Joshua‬ ‭2‬:‭21‬ ‭ESV‬‬      https://bible.com/bible/59/jos.2.21.ESV . Then it correlated. In order to be a three-stranded cord. You have to simply be a cord first. Rahab had faith before she had understanding. She had Hope before certainty. And Obedience before outcome. Rahab’s faith in trusting these two men allowed a covenant between the THREE of them. There it is. The three-stranded cord and this is why that promise wasn’t broken. Through this Rahab’s lineage was redeemed by Jesus himself. This is my favorite part. Cord in Hebrew is; Ḥut = something small but functional God uses the small, unknown and overlooked and makes them mighty. And with this communities, ministries are made. Through the obedience of one strand, woven into three.

Why? Neci why do you even write blogs? It’s 2026 and you’re only 24. I do it because I believe there are people out there that just like me need guidance. We’re scared to ask our family or friends questions so we ask Chat GPT but also it’s literally a robot so like what do we do? I’m struggling with this and that and no one understands. I understand that we are supposed to love like Jesus but I don’t understand why? Or how? I don’t know why I should love others when they don’t even love me. I’m too young to follow Jesus that’s for old people. No one my age even does that, we all party. I’m looking for love in a man yet I don’t feel ranything when I try. This is why I write. For the ones who have these thoughts and worries. Because I too was once there. I understand what it means to suffer in silence. I want to be that friend that is there for others. I would say always but honestly that’s not realistic. Only Jesus can be that for someone and I am not Jesus not even close. But other than that I love to write between the books I am writing and have yet to write I sometimes feel so much and through those feelings I write. You can’t write something you havent been through with real emotion. I couldnt care to be the best selling author or the girl that writes books people ignore I don’t write my stories so I can feel good, I write them because I am gifted and I believe gifts aren’t meant to keep to ourselves. I am not boasting, this is biblical. Whenever I was a kid I would talk and felt as if no one listened so writing and no one reading isn’t a problem lol. Anyways, this is why I write, because I will not hold on to a gift from God, I will release it to the world and help and encourage others. Whatever you are gifted with, please don’t hold onto it for yourself. Respectfully it’s not for you so don’t be selfish. If you are scared, don’t be in the Bible 365 times it says to not be afraid. Do it, no matter what. God didn’t gift you for no reason. He chose you, not the ones you look at and compare yourself to, but you With love,   Neci 🤍

Hi Darling, Happy New Year!! This morning waking up everyone mostly read the same Bible verse. Yet before it was even mentioned on my phone or whatever I felt led to read that certain chapter this morning. “Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the wilderness and streams in the wasteland.” Isaiah 43:18-19 Yet although that is a key factor in everything. Let me tell you guys about the deep dive I’ve gone into. Alright so Saturday I was out with my brothers and one of my brothers fiancée. We were just walking around when this song started to play. A Sky Full of Stars. Whenever I was on the way to where we were going my older brother happened to be playing that same song. Then a few days later I was with my other brother’s fiancée and we were dress shopping. The song began to play again. I’m like okay that’s so weird. Then yesterday I went with my best friend to get my godson’s hair cut. When we walked in this song starts playing again. Yet this time it was the instrumental version. I’m like okay God what the actual heck is up with this song. I love it, it’s a good song but like???? So I studied the lyrics and this morning after reading this chapter I put it all together. In this chapter Isaiah 43, Israel is in the darkest season they’ve been in a while. They were in exile and under Babylonian captivity. They believed that God had even abandoned them in this darkness. Which is why God responded with this: “But now, this is what the Lord says— he who created you, Jacob, he who formed you, Israel: “Do not fear, for I have redeemed you; I have summoned you by name; you are mine. When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze.” ‭‭Isaiah‬ ‭43‬:‭1‬-‭2‬ ‭NIV‬‬ https://bible.com/bible/111/isa.43.1-2.NIV I wondered what does this have to do with the sky full of stars? Wellll We are the sky full of stars and Jesus is trying to give us his heart. Oh no you’re stretching this out, you sound insane. Oh really? Well in correlation with us, I have also been very heavily in the book of 1st Samuel. Called by name. 🌟 It states it here in Isaiah 43:1, 1st Samuel 3:4-9, Psalm 147:4. “He determines the number of the stars and calls them each by name.” ‭‭Psalms‬ ‭147‬:‭4‬ ‭NIV‬‬ Get it yet? We are the sky full of stars and he calls us precious, and his own. Isn’t that beautiful? He loves us so, so much. Let this be your reminder this year. You are seen and God knows your name. Every fault of last year has been forgotten now live this year like you are a shining star. ✨ Nuggets: God doesn’t choose the obvious. He chooses the overlooked stars. ⭐️ Stars don’t shine for attention. They shine because it’s who they are ✨

Hi Darling, So today I had a list of plans to do. I’m in the midst of moving 44 minutes away which is 42 miles and all week I’ve been up and moving. Yet today I found myself drained and I’m like I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I’ve wasted a whole day Yet I may have not done what I wanted but I did what I needed to do. I rested. Sometimes we think that business is best. But honestly we are wrong. If I’m being honest I haven’t even taken a sabbath in like two months. According to studies this is what happens when we don’t prioritize our rest. • Burnout & emotional numbness – the brain stays in “survival mode” • Increased anxiety and depression – cortisol (stress hormone) remains elevated • Poor decision-making – the prefrontal cortex (wisdom, judgment) becomes impaired • Memory problems – rest is when memories are consolidated Studies even show that the brain literally can’t even process or heal. When I think of Heal I think of one name of Jesus There is healing in the name of Jesus, freedom in His name and much more but my sweet darling. What if? What if instead of being super busy. We can stop and hear his still small voice and receive rest. When we don’t rest, we are saying God actually I can handle this. But a body without rest will break down, even if it looks productive on the outside. So I challenge you to stop and get some rest. “Come away by yourselves to a quiet place and get some rest.” — Mark 6:31 Don’t feel guilty for resting your body, God rested after creating the earth. I love you and Jesus loves you! With Love,                   Neci 🤍

Hi Darling, As this year comes to an end, we tend to start thinking about two things—at least I know I do, lol. What did I do this year? What didn’t I do this year? And what am I going to do next year? And y’all, let me say this: we don’t have to think like that. Why? Because yesterday is gone, and tomorrow isn’t promised. We can sit here and reflect on what we did or didn’t accomplish from our vision boards, but darling, you have a Father who has already supplied you with the things He wanted for you. And trust me—our Dad provides. Instead of focusing only on this past year, go back a few years and look at the faithfulness of God. Look at what He brought you through. Look at what He’s blessed you with. Think back to that moment when you cried out, “Why, God? Why?” Now look at you. What happened after that? You wouldn’t even blink twice if God said, “Don’t worry. I’m so proud of you.” And you know who else is? Jesus. Every step of this race, you’ve been able to keep going. Keep your eyes on the prize and keep running. He’s cheering you on, saying, “That’s my son. That’s my daughter!” And at the same time, He’s telling the opposition, “Move away from them.” So as we step into this next year, let’s not rush it. Instead, over these next few days, let’s sit in stillness. Let’s pray. Let’s petition. We can start now—who says we have to wait? Wait on the Lord, maybe. Because we aren’t promised tomorrow, let’s live fully today. Live for Jesus. Live like He’s coming back tomorrow. My dear darling, you’ve got this. Don’t let fear, comparison, competition, doubt, or confusion get in your way. You are doing great—and nothing will ever change the love that God has for you. With love, Neci 🤍

Hi Darling, I debated sharing this for a while, but I believe I’m finally in a place where I can speak from healing rather than hurt. I lost my mom at a young age—at the very age I needed her most. Growing up, I never really asked myself “What if my mom dies?” Who does? Loss like that doesn’t just say “hey I’m coming to scoop your mom up”. It simply arrives and changes everything. What I didn’t expect was the ache that would surface in my twenties. A deeper longing. A quiet desire for guidance, covering, and nurturing that I didn’t even have language for yet. With this, I learned God often blesses people with spiritual mothers and fathers—and I was grateful to experience that more than once. But here’s the part that took time for me to understand: even good gifts can uncover unhealed places. Because I had lost my mom so young, I sought out mother/daughter relationships and carrying expectations I didn’t realize I had. When things didn’t unfold the way I hoped, I internalized the pain and began to believe I was the problem. I wondered if something about me made it hard for anyone to stay in that role for long. Looking back, I see that this wasn’t something that started in adulthood—it began much earlier. As a child, I often assumed that other people’s moms didn’t like me. I can’t fully explain why. It was a quiet belief that lived in the background of my thoughts, and it shaped how I showed up. Because of that, I found myself craving validation from older women and maternal figures. I wanted to be seen, chosen, and affirmed With that being said I wanted to be liked by any mom or woman figure. I looked for validation in any older woman and through this it caused a lot of hurt. A lot of my friends whether past or present would tell me about their mom problems and I would be thrown off like oh my goodness you are talking bad about your mom and I lost mine. But whenever God would bless me with a mom figure (if you will) I would do the same. Which brings me to these verses; “And why worry about a speck in your friend’s eye when you have a log in your own?” Matthew 7:3 (NLT) And again: “Don’t eavesdrop on others—you may hear your servant curse you. For you know how often you yourself have cursed others.” Ecclesiastes 7:21–22 (NLT) These verses didn’t come to condemn me—they came to soften me. Recently, God has been showing me something freeing: while spiritual mothers are a beautiful gift, they are not a requirement for wholeness. My healing does not depend on someone filling a role perfectly. God Himself is the one who mothers the brokenhearted, restores what was lost, and teaches us how to stand securely in His love. This realization hasn’t made me less grateful for spiritual mothers—it’s made me more grounded. I no longer approach relationships from a place of need, but from a place of trust. Trust that God knows what I need, when I need it, and how to provide it—sometimes through people, and sometimes through His own presence. If you carry “mom hurt,” I want you to know this: you are not broken, you are not difficult, and you are not unlovable. Longing does not make you weak—it makes you human. Healing begins when we allow God to tend to the places we expected others to fix. And in that healing, we learn that we were never without a Mothering God all along. With Love, Neci 🤍

Hi Darling, As a single Christian, we tend to hear the phrase “kingdom spouse” everywhere — but what does that really mean? And why do we search for it so hard, so often? In my single era (or whatever you want to call it), I used to always look for a crush or scan the room for the cutest guy in church. But as I’m maturing in my faith and growing my relationship with Jesus, I’m learning that not everything is about a significant other — and marriage is not the answer I once thought it was. For years I prayed for a husband. Journal entry after journal entry. I even made a specific journal for him. I had to sit with this realization in silence one night and ask myself—have I been loving the idea of marriage more than I love Jesus? This was when I realized God has been showing me something… I’m not ready for a relationship. Not even close. Because if the goal is to love Jesus more than a husband, I can honestly admit — some days I’m not there yet. Some nights I lay in bed watching romance movies. Instead of reading my Bible, I talk to God about my future husband more than I talk to Him about our relationship. And those are red flags I’ve had to start noticing in myself. I’ve caught myself always looking for the cutest guy in the room. But this was never the end goal of following Jesus. To be a Christian is to lay down your life and follow Him. And I cannot fully lay down my heart if I’m constantly trying to hand it to a guy. The definition of surrender is to lay it down and leave it there — but if you keep picking it back up, it’s not truly surrendered. As Christians, we have to be careful not to seek after something God hasn’t released yet. It’s one thing to pray in faith. It’s another thing to obsess and idolize. A “kingdom spouse” is often described as someone God aligns with your purpose to help advance His Kingdom — not just to fulfill your loneliness. But sometimes we fall so in love with the idea of that person that we forget the One who is supposed to be first. In Genesis, God says it is not good for man to be alone — and yes, that can point to marriage. But it can also point to community. To friendship. To accountability. To being seen and loved by the body of Christ. Not every answer to loneliness has to be romantic. In our single season, we have an opportunity that is so sacred. We get uninterrupted time with our Father. We get to learn ourselves. We get to confront our red flags while it’s just us and God — so those same issues don’t bleed into future marriages. So instead of searching for a way out of singleness, what if we embraced it? What if we chose to be one with Jesus first? I challenge you, in this season, to fall in love with the Father before you fall in love with the promise. With Love, Neci 🤍

Hi Darling, As it’s getting closer to 2026 my eyes are opening up and my discernment is growing. The friendships that I’ve invested so much time into I have realized that I am being called away from. Honestly it hurts a lot but I didn’t see what God saw. The secret conversations about me when I’m not around and things that I would never expect. Yet God has been so gracious on bringing the things done in the dark to the light. So truly I tell you, if you are feeling like your friends have been a bit weird towards you lately, ask God to reveal things to you. And He will, yes it will hurt but darling you will be okay. He will remove you from those who haven’t been in your best interest. It’s also okay to grieve this, take your time and remember the good memories and thank God for them. Then Let him heal you. If not you will bleed out on others that He is calling you to be friends with. I have been writing my newest book and it’s mostly about that; hurt people hurting people. Yet that isn’t biblical we aren’t called to tear others down but to lift them up in love. In order to lift people up, we can’t lift with weak arms. Like okay don’t laugh I was at the park with my best friend and my godson (who is one) started to do pull-ups on a bar and I’m like okay I can do that. Bruh I literally just hung in the air. I don’t work on my arms so I have weak arms. The only weight my arms carry is children at work. If I had to lift up someone my own age I wouldn’t be able to. You can’t lift in weakness so why would you be able to pour into someone if you are hurting? Heal and take your time. Forgive them. Cut off all soul ties and let them go. When shame comes in or the enemy planting lies, rebuke them. Jesus has already given you the authority. You don’t have to walk in anything that you don’t want to. I promise when you walk in obedience of letting them go you will be blessed immensely and this is my prayer for you. I love you and Jesus loves you more! With Love, Neci 🤍

Hi Darling, I know it is a hard season. Being bedridden sounds like the best thing to do. But as you walk there will be times that you are struggling to get through the waves. The sand is all mushy and if you stay there for too long you will have to try with everything to pull your feet out and keep going. If not you will start to sink in the wet sand. But the further you walk the more you will see. Dolphins, turtles, the best seashells, stingrays, and manatees. They are all there but you have to keep going. This brings me to two scriptures: “In my vision, the man brought me back to the entrance of the Temple. There I saw a stream flowing east from beneath the door of the Temple and passing to the right of the altar on its south side. The man brought me outside the wall through the north gateway and led me around to the eastern entrance. There I could see the water flowing out through the south side of the east gateway. Measuring as he went, he took me along the stream for 1,750 feet and then led me across. The water was up to my ankles. He measured off another 1,750 feet and led me across again. This time the water was up to my knees. After another 1,750 feet, it was up to my waist. Then he measured another 1,750 feet, and the river was too deep to walk across. It was deep enough to swim in, but too deep to walk through. He asked me, “Have you been watching, son of man?” Then he led me back along the riverbank. When I returned, I was surprised by the sight of many trees growing on both sides of the river. Then he said to me, “This river flows east through the desert into the valley of the Dead Sea. The waters of this stream will make the salty waters of the Dead Sea fresh and pure. There will be swarms of living things wherever the water of this river flows. Fish will abound in the Dead Sea, for its waters will become fresh. Life will flourish wherever this water flows.” ‭‭Ezekiel‬ ‭47‬:‭1‬-‭9‬ ‭NLT‬‬ https://bible.com/bible/116/ezk.47.1-9.NLT “At dawn the next morning the angels became insistent. “Hurry,” they said to Lot. “Take your wife and your two daughters who are here. Get out right now, or you will be swept away in the destruction of the city!” When Lot still hesitated, the angels seized his hand and the hands of his wife and two daughters and rushed them to safety outside the city, for the Lord was merciful. When they were safely out of the city, one of the angels ordered, “Run for your lives! And don’t look back or stop anywhere in the valley! Escape to the mountains, or you will be swept away!” “Oh no, my Lord!” Lot begged. “You have been so gracious to me and saved my life, and you have shown such great kindness. But I cannot go to the mountains. Disaster would catch up to me there, and I would soon die. See, there is a small village nearby. Please let me go there instead; don’t you see how small it is? Then my life will be saved.” “All right,” the angel said, “I will grant your request. I will not destroy the little village. But hurry! Escape to it, for I can do nothing until you arrive there.” (This explains why that village was known as Zoar, which means “little place.”) Lot reached the village just as the sun was rising over the horizon. Then the Lord rained down fire and burning sulfur from the sky on Sodom and Gomorrah. He utterly destroyed them, along with the other cities and villages of the plain, wiping out all the people and every bit of vegetation. But Lot’s wife looked back as she was following behind him, and she turned into a pillar of salt.” ‭‭Genesis‬ ‭19‬:‭15‬-‭26‬ ‭NLT‬‬ https://bible.com/bible/116/gen.19.26.NLT You see I don't add this randomly. One is about how Ezekiel went deeper into water. This shows the progression of spiritual life: Ankles - You've tasted God Knees - You've begun to walk with Him Waist - He's involved in your strength and direction Swimming - You are fully surrendered, fully carried by God You cannot control a river when you're swimming in it - you trust it to carry you. This is a picture of total surrender to God's Spirit. When the waves are hitting hard it's easy to run to what you're comfortable with or an easy comfort. Like I am not going to lie sometimes instead of going to the feet of Jesus I listen to Justin Bieber because I feel a sort of comfort. But that's not what I ought to do, I should go deeper into the word of God. I should go deeper into prayer. And the deeper you go the more those aggressive waves start to calm. Just as Jesus told the storm to be still we have that same power. Now why exactly did I add Lot's wife? To show you what happens when you don't keep going. You probably won't turn into salt lol but those waves will drown you until you can't even recognize yourself. Trust me it's happen to me. Where I had imposter syndrome and told everyone I didn't want to continue to be a Christian. All because I let the devil into my head with all of his lies. And it was only getting progressively worst because I was getting closer to my freedom, closer to my promised land. He hates us and doesn't want to see us free. He wants to see us drown not swim. But in the end we know that Jesus has already set us free so petty waves should never be a problem. Because we have authority given to us by Christ Jesus so we can say to any wave, tornado, or hurricane to be still and it will. So I ask you in this season will you drown or swim? With Love, Neci

Hi darling, I hope you are doing well today—and if you’re not, I pray these words wrap around you like a hug. This is for the ones who have experienced rejection. I have been in a community before where I was pushed away. It hurt deeply, and in that season, I could have walked away from Jesus… but instead, I walked away from that community. And for a while, I wrestled with why. Jesus, You led me there—why didn’t You warn me I would be rejected by people I loved? But what would that have done? If I had been warned, I might never have grown. Growth requires discomfort. Even Jesus was rejected, and yet He never sinned against those who hurt Him—so why should we harden our hearts in response? Here’s what I’ve come to understand: Sometimes God places us in communities not because they already know how to love well—but because we do. He sends us to teach what is lacking. And sometimes, when the season is complete, He pulls us out. I would have stayed if God told me to. But instead, I felt a strong, undeniable urging to leave. And in my obedience—saying, Yes, God. I trust You to take me further—He did exactly that. Now I get to do this. I get to use my voice. I get to uplift you. I get to speak to those who have never experienced true love… and remind them that they are seen, chosen, and deeply loved. Without community, the enemy is more likely to attack and you aren’t able to be battle ready with no one standing behind you or worse spiritually dead standing with you. So use your discernment (discernment is the God-given ability to see what is really going on beneath the surface) and don’t forget to love like Jesus even through rejection. Jesus will never reject you! “Don’t be afraid, for I am with you. Don’t be discouraged, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you. I will hold you up with my victorious right hand.” ‭‭Isaiah‬ ‭41‬:‭10‬ ‭NLT‬‬ https://bible.com/bible/116/isa.41.10.NLT He will always be cheering you on like: “Ayee!! That’s my child!” “Keep going!” “I’m proud of you and I love you!” rejection is not just about being disliked or left out—it is about being misunderstood, opposed, or pushed away despite walking in obedience to God. We are human so remember that people will hurt you and that’s okay. Because we also hurt others but as long as we can forgive and be forgiving. Then everything will be just okay. I love you and just know I hope you know the love of the Father will never reject you. With Love, Neci 🤍